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Something I started tonight. I really really like where it is going. I know you can't see much by the photo but I am excited. (Comments/suggestions are always welcome)

Tonight painting really felt good. Smelling all that toxic shit is nice sometimes. Makes me think I am back to sophomore year in the painting studios of RISD (nostalgic moment, fuck). I am going to build up the layers a lot in places like I started doing at the end of my independent study with Chad last quarter. I liked placing one bit of color next to another and not really blending everything, so that the mark of the paint (I think) is more interesting and more expressive.

Hopefully I'll have some more progress photos as this goes on.

I really want to start taking some workshops outside of RIT....intaglio, screen printing, loom weaving...things like that, I am trying to not need to go for a masters degree because I definitely do not have the money and being in more debt doesn't sound fun. Hopefully workshops will satisfy me. I need to do some research. I might have to go outside of Rochester....again suggestions welcome haha (suggestions for my life as well because its almost time to leave the nest and I still have no idea what I am going to do.)

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This is what I have been up to. Can you tell what it is? Ha, probably not. Still more to add. I'm really enjoying the process of making these physical quilted things. Sewing is really good for calming me down, something that painting hasn't been doing for a while, and even now doing this it is often frustrating, but I guess it works itself out. I'm just generally frustrated I guess.

More to come?

What?

I got into the Cornhill Arts Festival on a student application.
Woah. What the fuck? Basically I get to be in the festival for a cheep price (like 1/3 of the price), and get to sell/promote my stuff.

How did this happen?

Escape

This was my "escape"...crosswords with Bernie. I ended up putting color washes over the pen.

Today's Happiness

So at this moment I am experiencing a surge of inspiration. Stemming from the acquisition of new folk music starting with Devendra Banhart and branching off to a number of new folk groups that I am loving.

Its not just the music, but the whole artistic scene that is attracting me.

I think I am just going to do my own thing for a while and not care what people here think. I am usually a very confident person, but not when it comes to my work. Now I just am not going to care. I think that illustration really isn't for me. I just want to do my own work, maybe show in galleries if I like my stuff enough, maybe work in a coffee place, or a book store...who knows. Illustration really isn't fun for me, and I don't know why I went into it in the first place. Bad decisions based on insecurity I guess. I know that if I told that to anyone here, they would think I was crazy and probably wouldn't waist their time on me. Which is sad, but I think true.

Oh well, I'm almost out of here. Then its off to somewhere better, hopefully. Right now I'm really feelin' going to San Francisco, or somewhere in warm California. I want to set up a really creative place with friends/ family and just live a really chill life. That's all I want really. Money isn't a priority, just a necessity, and I'm not going to let that stop me from doing what I want. You only live once right? Come hang out with me :)

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