This was my "escape"...crosswords with Bernie. I ended up putting color washes over the pen.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Friday, April 3, 2009
Today's Happiness
So at this moment I am experiencing a surge of inspiration. Stemming from the acquisition of new folk music starting with Devendra Banhart and branching off to a number of new folk groups that I am loving.
Its not just the music, but the whole artistic scene that is attracting me.
I think I am just going to do my own thing for a while and not care what people here think. I am usually a very confident person, but not when it comes to my work. Now I just am not going to care. I think that illustration really isn't for me. I just want to do my own work, maybe show in galleries if I like my stuff enough, maybe work in a coffee place, or a book store...who knows. Illustration really isn't fun for me, and I don't know why I went into it in the first place. Bad decisions based on insecurity I guess. I know that if I told that to anyone here, they would think I was crazy and probably wouldn't waist their time on me. Which is sad, but I think true.
Oh well, I'm almost out of here. Then its off to somewhere better, hopefully. Right now I'm really feelin' going to San Francisco, or somewhere in warm California. I want to set up a really creative place with friends/ family and just live a really chill life. That's all I want really. Money isn't a priority, just a necessity, and I'm not going to let that stop me from doing what I want. You only live once right? Come hang out with me :)
Its not just the music, but the whole artistic scene that is attracting me.
I think I am just going to do my own thing for a while and not care what people here think. I am usually a very confident person, but not when it comes to my work. Now I just am not going to care. I think that illustration really isn't for me. I just want to do my own work, maybe show in galleries if I like my stuff enough, maybe work in a coffee place, or a book store...who knows. Illustration really isn't fun for me, and I don't know why I went into it in the first place. Bad decisions based on insecurity I guess. I know that if I told that to anyone here, they would think I was crazy and probably wouldn't waist their time on me. Which is sad, but I think true.
Oh well, I'm almost out of here. Then its off to somewhere better, hopefully. Right now I'm really feelin' going to San Francisco, or somewhere in warm California. I want to set up a really creative place with friends/ family and just live a really chill life. That's all I want really. Money isn't a priority, just a necessity, and I'm not going to let that stop me from doing what I want. You only live once right? Come hang out with me :)
Monday, March 9, 2009
Monday, January 26, 2009
Continued...
Discouragement has increased again today when the question of why I am still in school reared it ugly head again....
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Digital Art.....Lame
I will never be a digital artist.
This quarter being all digital is killing me. Photoshop is going alright, but I am still not seeing why I should be painting on the computer when I could do it in the real world..... and Illustrator is a complete mess. In fact, I'm supposed to be working right now on a digital piece but must take a break before I throw my computer into the wall.
The fact that I cannot crack the Illustrator barrier is eating me away. I am good (or at least able to understand) almost anything I pick up, but for all the time I invest in this program I cannot get it to do what I want. This makes me extremely mad. I almost want someone to sit with me and watch over my shoulder so that I can have help every time I reach a snag (which is every five minutes). I am extremely discouraged, and I am now actually switching back to Photoshop just so that I can get this assignment to a finished level.
I am longing for next quarter where I will be taking all traditional illustration classes. I honestly gave digital all I have. At least I know what I do and do not like. Although now I am worrying about getting a job in a world where technology dominates everything..... it is a burden and a blessing I guess.
This quarter being all digital is killing me. Photoshop is going alright, but I am still not seeing why I should be painting on the computer when I could do it in the real world..... and Illustrator is a complete mess. In fact, I'm supposed to be working right now on a digital piece but must take a break before I throw my computer into the wall.
The fact that I cannot crack the Illustrator barrier is eating me away. I am good (or at least able to understand) almost anything I pick up, but for all the time I invest in this program I cannot get it to do what I want. This makes me extremely mad. I almost want someone to sit with me and watch over my shoulder so that I can have help every time I reach a snag (which is every five minutes). I am extremely discouraged, and I am now actually switching back to Photoshop just so that I can get this assignment to a finished level.
I am longing for next quarter where I will be taking all traditional illustration classes. I honestly gave digital all I have. At least I know what I do and do not like. Although now I am worrying about getting a job in a world where technology dominates everything..... it is a burden and a blessing I guess.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Friday, December 19, 2008
Update
So I am entering my first real poster contest (outside of high school) in the next month, and I am feeling uncharacteristically nervous. Big money is at steak (stake?) and damnit I want to win really bad, which is always a terrible thing because that means I really care. Usually I refrain from caring because I am often disappointed, but now I think I might have a chance. I really should get used to this feeling as it is probably going to follow me throughout my life, and my profession. I am never a fan of competition (unless I know I am going to win ahahahaha). Anyways, the deadline is pretty far off (Feb) so I am just in the brainstorming stages. Its going to be hard because I have never actually been to the event and I'm sure the other people submitting have, but I don't see that as being too big of a problem.
I'm wishing myself luck because I'm pretty positive no one reads this hahaha which I kind of like, but is the opposite of what the point should be.
Hopefully I will be productive over break. I'm excited about the projects I'm doing :)
I'm wishing myself luck because I'm pretty positive no one reads this hahaha which I kind of like, but is the opposite of what the point should be.
Hopefully I will be productive over break. I'm excited about the projects I'm doing :)
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